Archive | February 2016

Some Things Just Happen ….That’s Just the Way Things Are!

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Days That Make You Strong – Maybe

 The day started well.  Woke up early – I’m a night owl but somehow have turned my nights into day and day into nights.  As I started my day, doing what comes naturally, turning on the computer, I thought about my plans for the day.  First on my blank slate was to work on my drawing.  Thanks to a fellow artist my interest in artistic endeavors had come back full bore.  Just then the phone rang.  It was that same number that had been calling me for days – from another state, never left a message; and I was sure it was a robocall so I never answered it.  Well, it’s time to find out who this is, I thought.  So I checked the number on Google and found the number belonged to Kohl’s store.  Hmmm.  I just opened an account with them at Christmas, were they doing a survey or what?  I called the number and the lady informed me I was overdue with my first payment.  This couldn’t be, as I remember registering online.  As I was talking to her I looked up my account and found, yes, I had registered but — oh yeah, I remember now, since it was several weeks before my payment was due I decided to wait to make a payment – and never did!  So the $25. savings I made by opening an account was quickly taken away by a late fee!

As I’m relating all this to a friend on FB I get yet another call.  This time it’s a fellow member of a club in which I am the recording secretary.  She wants to know am I going to be coming to the meeting “today”?  What?? A meeting? Today!??  Oh no, I hadn’t even written it down in my organizer.  In one and a half years I had never missed a meeting.  I was mortified.  How could this happen?  The week before, when the phone person called to see if I would be coming to the meeting I said, “of course”, but wondered why she was calling so soon when the meeting was almost three weeks away.  Turns out February had two meetings scheduled instead of the regular one meeting a month.

So my lovely day was fast becoming troublesome and my spirits were dropping fast.  Trying to stay strong, but spirits dropping fast.  I knew this month might be a hard one since it is the second anniversary of my husband’s death.  But just when I have moved on to start a new life with new purpose and I invite love into my life again – only to find it is unrequited love.   Now my spirits have bottomed out!

The phone rang again and it’s my newfound friend who invited me to go for a walk in a most exceptionally beautiful park the day before.   Her humor and good cheer helped lift my spirits – enough so that I was able to get to work on my drawing.

Upon awakening the next morning I went through my morning ritual, turned to my FB page and found a very dear lifelong friend, whom I had shared my tale of woe to,  had posted a blog on my timeline Not Everything Happens For a Reason: The magic words to say when everything is going wrong

I could relate to the article – I had been in a “why me, why me” for sometime in the past month.   If someone had said to me,  “everything happens for a reason” it would have added to my grief not lessened it.  So it is my friends who care for me and listen without platitudes and well meaning but ill-timed advise who lift me up and out of despair.

Onward and upward!  I am stronger!  And I turned to this strengthening little God-sent scripture this morning:

Psalm 34:18   The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit.